The Kiwi Who Flew

Dude, what the fuck people.

I´m in Brasil right now (got here about last week or before, will be here until the end of the month) and all we´re getting on the news is ´HOLY SHIT MASSIVE SNOWSTORM AMERICANS DEAD´

Is everyone okay??

Okay, so maybe that was kind of a bad idea to just drop the whole "so I found my moms dog mutilated and beheaded" thing and leave it at that. I do appreciate the IM's everyone, but I'm doing better. I'm okay, as for what happened, here's what I have.

Most of this was written in a mixture of the day after it all happened and scattered through the past weeks, so it's really rambly, and I apologize for it not being in better order, but I just really don't have the head to rewrite it.

( Cut for content )

So that's basically what happened on that account.

The latest development is that she found a blind, 9 year old chihuahua in a nearby rescue she's got her eyes on. I don't think it will pan into anything since we're off to Brasil in 2 or so weeks, but whatever keeps her mind off him.

Hey, I just want to apologize to all the comments and emails I got a while back that I didn't respond to on some comms.

My mom's dog, some of you know him as Max, others know him as I called him, RatDog, went missing.

Well, we found him.

Basically, I found him mutilated and decapitated. It wasn't a pretty sight, and I'd had this whole post explaining what had happened planned, but honestly, I'm all talked out about it. So we'll just leave it at that for now. We don't know what killed him in specific, and quite frankly, I'm tired of theorizing or else it's going to drive me even more insane than it already had.

My mom didn't take to it well, and to some extent, neither did I. There was a lot of freaking out, and even surprisingly some on my own part. Things are up and down around here as my mom is still not fully recovered, I, however, am doing a bit better since my mom dragged me off to her therapist yesterday to kind of vent. I'd been needing to talk about it since I was the one to find him, but now that I did I don't really want to anymore.

Anyway,Looks like I won't be making it to AUSA. I just don't feel right leaving my mom alone for a weekend. Paul, I've been trying to catch you online about this, but I keep missing you because I'm asleep when you're on!! I still don't know, but to err on the side of caution, I'm leaning towards no. Especially since I'd have to leave tomorrow.

Otherwise, I've generally been on and off on LJ reguardless, mostly because I was kinda getting my fandom fix on GJ with RPG's. But the one I was in I left due to inactivity, but it was fun as hell while it lasted. However, I also couldn't find a new one to join, so I'm likely back here for fandom fixes and whatnot. SO yeah, expect that obnoxious parade of over posting and over commenting again XD

And that's the past few months in summary, brought to you by inordinate amounts of caffeine.

Edit: Damn, I also realize my last entry was *September*. Holyshi

I love how all the Harry Potter stuff was making me sad (shut up) so I logged on to my old cosplay account for a change of pace and what do I get?

Harry Potter Cosplay Drama

THAT IS AMAZING. UNBELIEVABLY AWESOMELY AMAZING.

Never change, cosplayers. Never change.

So I am officially fandom-less. And I just can't think of anything. There are a couple of anime I need to look up but.. Bah, anime. Any reccomendations? Books? TV Series? At all? Bueller?

Things that get me in a fandom:

- Characters with inner demons, the more literal that is, the better (Angel-Angelus from Buffy is an example)

- Impossible/ Not Meant To Be romances. The more twisted, the better. The more drawn out, the better.

- Conflict. Conflictconflictconflict. Conflict? Conflict.

After Doctor/Rose and Remus/Tonks I'm ready for a Happy Ending ifyouplz.

Page 514.

And now, I'm going to watch Pan's Labyrinth.
After that, I'll watch Doomsday on Doctor Who.

Then, I'm going to the vet's office and seeing if they have any terminally ill kittens.

Because, a soul? Who needs it? Might as well CRUSH IT FULLY IN ONE GO.

Oh, come on JKR. Come on.

ISA! Shit at work has REALLY started picking up in preparation for Pottercon PA and I may not be able to get your Ravenclaw Robes done in time. I've got the main bodice down, but I don't know how much time I'll have to work on the sleeves and hood. On that note, looks like I might not be able to go as Tonks for Pottercon :( The only way I can switch shifts is if I go to work that day and leave around 2, so I'll have to go from work straight to the train station and won't have time to pick my shit up.

On a lighter note, Julia got back last night <3 So today we're going to go to this place called Bushkill Falls, which are these rapids in the Pocanos. Should be cool! Just so long as I don't have an accident like when she took me snowboarding. My girlfriend is out to get me, I'm tellin' ya.

PEOPLE GOING TO WATCH ORDER OF THE PHOENIX: I demand a full and in depth summary of Natalia Tena's every on screen appearance. FULL AND IN DEPTH. If they show when she fights Bella in the Ministry? You had SO better gimme visuals.

..Why am I such a wuss?

Also, yeah, yeah, I know I'm going to get picked on for being a youngin' on this, but Oh Dear God. I just saw the music video for Bonnie Tyler's Total Eclipse of the Heart has to be the most disturbing. Thing. I have seen. In my. Entire. Life.

NINJAS!

Seriously. You people need to check this out: http://youtube.com/watch?v=dL2ayiFfJbk

(ISA! Do you still want me to make the Ravenclaw Robes for you?)

RPGstuffs: OHSHISON, from _every angle_. Oh yesplz. I'm down to the one RPG at this point, but it makes me happy. Joining one more in September. Musyc, we need to figure out what we're doing for the Draco-MLE fiasco before Tonks gets fired and goes hobo. I haven't been able to catch Claire online and ask about how much time Tonks has left in MLE.

Non RPG stuffs: I'm kinda bored for costumes now. I'm remaking the lavender nightgown to be more fabric accurate. God I'm going to need something to doooo.

Julia is out of town so I'm all girlfriend-withdrawl. Which makes me sad. And utterly, inhumanly bored. Even here at work things are just DULL.

I feel like trying to re-watch House. Maybe this time I'll do so without psycho ex girlfriend flashbacks. (TRUFAX: Every girlfriend save for one I've had up to this point have been yaoi fangirls. Not slash fans, yaoi fangirls. These odds baffle me. I adore Julia, but I refuse to come within three feet of Kingdom Hearts at this point.)

My Harry Potter Spoiler of Doom is: Remus Lupin goes on a hot date with Narcissa Malfoy after doing battle with an evil dragon Get your Harry Potter Spoiler of Doom

OKAY JUST WHAT ARE THE ODDS. SERIOUSLY. COME ON. THEY DID THAT ON PURPOSE.

My thoughts on Peter/Claire:

"You're freaking out the Blackcest fan, cut it out."

So we've been marathoning Heroes. Which, considering Candice is my PB for Tonks, makes me obnoxious as all fuck happyhappy. But one thing I never got with Heroes is Peter/Claire. I mean, even before we got the OMGSPOILER I just found it kinda creepy.

So my friends are like "Aw, Peter Claire so cute" and, to be fair, she doesn't know the OMGSPOILER yet, but this is where the above quote came from after the whole "DUDE SHE LOOKS TWELVE" "Yeah and totally looks fourty" "BESIDE THE POINT". Because, really, incest between non siblings and non parents is not a problem with me. But my problem with Peter/Claire isn't the incest angle.

Now CLEARLY age range is not meant to be a problem for me, and I doubt Peter and Claire have, Oh, Say, Fourteen years between them, but for some odd reason it creeps the hell out of me. I think, however, it's because Claire's actress is like me: She looks obnoxiously younger than she is. She does look to be thirteen fourteen reguardless of being allegedly 18 in the series, so it makes me go "Oh god no stop why he's like 30something and she looks 12" Actually she's one year younger than me, which makes me wonder if maybe there's just something about our generation where we look freakishly young. (IT'S IN THE CHIKIN)

I leave today :( In three hours, which means likely Candice will not be showing up in the series before I leave which means there will be no rampant screaming and groping my friends in joy. Damn.

Also? No photoshootness. Why? Because GENIUS kept freaking out over the RPG and crawling back to her Laptop every. Three. Seconds.

That's the other thing. The RPG has taken over my soul.

To the point that more than once I came very near to having needed to be physically dragged away from my laptop.

No. Really.

And that makes me happy.

So between that and hanging out and having Deep Talks(c) with friends, ehich I really appreciated. I got to talk about politics and things and reminded one of the reasons I adore these people so much, they're just very with it and so aware of their surroundings it's impossible to believe they've never left this country (Well, Canada, but.) But I got to talkk about last year, this year, come clean about some things. It was comforting to see they kinda knew it all already and they picked up on it a bit. I don't think I can ever really get fully over what I put them through, but knowing they understand and that they still want to be friends does mean the world to me.

I never really got a chance to go to the shoot.

It makes me sad because I really do think I would have made a good kid!Tonks. And considering how paranoid I've been about every costume to date, that just made me happy. This time there was no 'I'm not asian' no 'I don't have big enough boobs.' I'm skinny and 5"0 and can't keep a straight face for more than five seconds, and for the first time I could have actually looked age appropriate and used being flat chested and young looking to an advantage. And it was Harry Potter and not cosplay, so I could have done it and actually not only had fun but not seen any drama come off it.

Oh well.

I'm in ur New Jerzeys, chilling with ur cozplayerz

So remember how I was all. I'm going to head up to NJ to see peoples and have a photoshoot? Well. Here I am. Fun fact: I forgot my wig. So I need to have it shipped overnight on monday to get here tuesday. Whatever. It ain't Tonks without pink spiky hair.

My friends are currently in a meeting since one of them is staff for the upcoming Anime Convention, Animeneext. This entire situation has shown me that, indeed, I have officially lost any and all interest in anime. It was a long, long time coming, I think. Since I'd been out of anime before for about a year before watching Bleach before it went up Oh Come On lane, around For Christ's Sake avenue, down You Have Got To Be Kidding Me drive before finally pulling into What The Flaming Fuckery Is This? Last time I saw anime was maybe August? Last time I LIKED a new anime? 2005.

But it was great that last time these people saw me I swore vehement loathe for Harry Potter, its author and so much more its fans. Then I get here and I'm like. "OMGYOUBELLACUTEYES?" and am met with blank stares and "I'm.. Not blonde..?' "Wait. What." "Isn't she the one married to Draco's dad?" "Dude. Narcissa." "Whatever, they're all related." "THAT THEY ARE, MY FRIEND. THAT THEY ARE >;D" "..What is with that face." "...Nothing. I'm not reading Blackcest when all this is over. AT ALL" "...." "..I have to RP now." "....." I have freaked them out more than once with all this. But at least I'm not alone. I outed another Harry Potter fan in here out of the closet. So since we're having like a sewing party downstairs, I'm working on extra hufflepuff robes for no good reason and he's working on Ravenclaw robes now that he's decided to be Luna. And he helps me in trying to get everyone else to dress up for what we have dubbed Pottercon.

Actually, I outed TWO Harry Potter fans out of the closet. The other one was nearer and Dearer to my heart since he said Sirius was his favourite character and also said to have a vehement loathing of Gary Oldman!Sirius.

The words needed to transcribe what happened after he said that simply do not exist.

I will have to make due by saying I launched myself at him and proceeded to my first out loud rant on my loathe of Gary Oldman!Sirius and his Yosemite Sam moustache.

But that guy left yesterday and I no longer have someone to seriously nerd out with.

Everything else aside, It's odd. You see folks, I haven't seen these guys in months. And I spent most of last year in Manic Depressive rage, which meant I took out most of it on these people. So in the back of my head I'm still kinda awkward. Like I don't know. Like I keep thinking they're just waiting for me to flip my shit again or something. And I keep worrying I'm too quiet. Like, they're random and funny and I'm just the sort to laugh at everything but not really the type to say anything funny. So it's weird that way. I mean. The amount of drama I caused is insane, and they'd warned me beforehand, but I then caused drama about _that_. So I just feel like this huge burden.


...Holy shit did I just get specifically invited to play Ginny in Diss?

Zomg. WHERE ARE THE FRIEND PEOPLES I NEED SOMEONE TO FREAK OUT WITH?

Like. Someone had me 'in mind' for a specific character. That is like. Unbelievable? Like. With my Tonks I can kinda see it, especially with Ginny's verbal pwneage of Slughorn and all. But. Wow. I mean, I don't think I'll go for it? I know some people are DESPERATE to play Ginny and i wouldn't like to keep someone like that from it to feed my own ego. Seriously, just the fact that someone actually had me in mind for a specific part makes me so obnoxiously happy? I have already been hanging around the friend peoples enough because now I must make everything into a question? Maybe it's annoying? I don't know?

Yes. Obnoxiously flattered.

And the temptation to play someone who ACTUALLY has people in their general age bracket is tempting as all hell. I have no idea why, but it seems like no one wants to app for adults aside from the Black Sisters (Which, I must admit, I find AWESOME. Getting an Andromeda can be quite rare, and ours is made of awesome 1950's win.) so it's kinda meh. I'd love a Kingsley or a Bill. But alas. Recently we had someone hold Remus but for reasons I'd better not specify I was making Deals with God for that girl to drop it. When she did I actually burst out "OH THANK YOU DEAR GOD" out loud thinking my friend next door was awake. She wasn't. The looks I got this morning were amazing, however. Same girl just.. Agh. She made a post about freaking Diana's death anniversary today (And if it's relevant, no, she isn't English. Like that wasn't enough of a clue.) Call me paranoid but why do I feel that this does not bode well?



...Those two TOTALLY connect. Yeah. I was checking my mail when I wrote this.

Dear Uterus,

Did I do something in the recent past to personally offend you or those you care about that you feel revenge is not only necessary, but must be unleashed at this magnitude?

No love,
Me.

P.S. FUCKING OW.

Alright. I just got home yesterday, now it's a matter of pretty much chillaxing until the Photoshoot on Saturday. Here are two of the.. Incidences that I can recall off the top of my head, I've got a couple more but they're all in my laptop. Which is.. All the way downstairs.

Thing I currently miss most about Amsterdam: Room Service.

( Pissing Off Prostitutes in EZ Steps )


( Belgium, the bus ride from Hell, the art of Ipod Warfare and Time To Declare War On Spain )

Next up THE TOURIST FROM THE LAYERS OF GODDAMN HELL and whatever the hell else is inside my far, far away laptop.

DID I JUST GET FLIPPED OFF BY AN ANGRY PROSTITUTE INSIDE A WINDOW?

WHY YES. YES I DID.


I have no idea why but I feel as though I have just leveled up in life.

Story to come later.

You guys would not, would not, believe the kind of day I have just had.

Ugh.

I remember when I was a kid back in London, riding my bicycle around the neighborhood when this old lady looks at me wide eyed and asks what I was doing out so late at night. I just look at her and tell her well, of course I'm going to be out riding my bike, it's still sunny out. She points out to me that it's 11 at night.

I used to think it was ridiculous that my friend's mother would make them go to sleep at 7:00pm, when it was still bright and sunny outside. It seemed downright inhuman. It just seemed so bizarre that she would pick a schedule like that.

I remember when that was the most normal thing on earth. But here it is, Amsterdam, 10:24 and a bright as hell sunset.



10 O'clock. At night.

Man I miss Europe sometimes.

Oh my God, Oh my God! I can't believe it. I just did it again. I just flashed another innocent Hotel worker!

What is wrong with me?

( Flashing the Bellboy aka Moon over Amsterdam )


( Who needs Epilepsy? )

So I started off my grand adventure over at the Cheese and Windmill tour.

No. I am not trying to be witty. I really did just spend the past 6 hours in a cheese and windmill tour.

The long story is the tour I wanted, the one of the Ducth Countryside, was full. The only one left was, indeed, the exciting world of cheese and windmills.

But, before the cheese but not after the windmills, we went to a village that was having a cheese festival (DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I AM GROWING A HATRED OF THE WORD CHEESE) But heres the thing: This village is tinytinytiny, and myabe 400 or so years old.

Guys, it is like something right out of a fairytale. I swear, this is the village they use to tape every fantasy movie ever. But.. It's not even so much fantasy as fairytale. It's all small and joined together with wooden details and those signs in German with those curling letters.. Really reminded me of that Snow Queen movie.

Took some neat pics. Again, camera is busted, so I have to wait to get home, get the memmory card, go to Eckerd, make a CD, get the CD to not work, go back to Eckerd and get a new CD if my trip from Italy is anything to go by.

Oh yes.

And leave it to me to wander into a DUTCH RENAISSANCE FESTIVAL. During this whole cheese festival thing, they were having what looked to be a dutch renaissance festival. COMPLETE WITH COSTUMES CAN I GET A HELLS YEAH? They really went all out with them. I was asking what was the dutch for "WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GET THAT FABRIC?"

I'm a little pathetic.

Things only got more fun, however, when the tour ended and I realized the ending spot? Not the same as the starting spot.

And I didn't have enough money with me for a cab. Actually, I didn't have any money. At all. No dollars, no Euro, nothing.

That was pretty much my last three hours. Wandering around Amsterdam, without a cent on me, looking for my hotel. At one point the possibility that I would never find the hotel and miss my plane and have to take up a job as a lolita prostitute to pay my own way to the American Embassy to plead my heart wrenching case in front of an skeevy embassador who would only help me if I agreed to life as his lover hiding as the nurse of his ill wife was really quite vivid.

Oh.

And what I learnt during that experience. Well. Aside from realizing I read way too much De Sade.

Coffee shops? Not really coffee shops.

But, on a related note, There are few things funnier than a drugged up Dutchman.

(Okay, basically, Coffee shops are what they call drug shops pretty much from what I can gather.)

Since I am now completely money less, I am going to sit on my ass and stay online. Well. Even if I did have money I'd at least stay put for a couple more hours till I get FEELING BACK IN MY FEET. If I manage to get to my account later, however, I'm thinking of taking a night tour or just a walking tour. Actually, it's great.

So I'm looking through the brochure for night tours or whatever, right? This is what I see.

Evening Cruise.
14.50
Children: 10.00

Every Evening At 8:00pm, 9:00pm, 10:00pm
A guided tour through the beautifully illuminated canals and "Red Light District" of Amsterdam.

Can you see this?

Kid: Mommy, Can I get a souvenier?
Mother: Not until you turn 15, dear.

Oh, those crazy Dutch. Actually, I am curious. They say that prostitution is a legal career, which makes sense, if you ask me. That way it's easier to control. They even have a worker's union. But I wonder if they get healthcare? I know they get health checks, but I wonder if they get like health care and benefits. It'd be pretty neat if they did. I dunno, I really think this is the best way of going about this.

Hm. I was going to ask the tour guide but I was a bit worried of offending her. Like I'd be implying that she "would know".

...God I've been in America for way too long if I'm worried about things like this.

I am not in this country one hour before flashing an unsuspecting bus boy my big Brasilian ass.

So I leave at 2:00pm for Amsterdam.

I'm not necessarily not looking forward to it and I'm not necessarily looking forward to it. I was there when I was younger, about 8 or so, and remember not liking it. But, then again, you could see how Amsterdam would be a boring place for an 8 year old. Now, not so much.

It'll be good to get out of the house, finally. I just don't know what exactly there is to do. I know the architecture is meant to be gorgeous, so I'm thinking of stealing the maternal unit's camera and going to town. But other than that? Hm. Well, Guess we'll see.


UUhg. 8 hour fliiight on United.. I hate united.. So much.. I miss British Airways..